The Adamic Mysteries
At the Beginning
Adam Kadmon came into existence alone.
Upon awakening and realizing that he was, he was overwhelmed by questions.
Who was he? What was this place? Where did he come from? How did he come to be? What was he supposed to do?
Just as quickly, he was flooded with answers.
More than answers, concepts.
He was ‘Adam Kadmon’. He was in the innermost regions of the empty ‘Eternal Static Realm of Paradise’. And he was ‘Supreme’.
Where did all these names come from? What did they mean? Who decided on them? Was it the Creator, the one who allowed him to exist?
No complete answers came.
And he was still alone.
He did not want to be alone and, as if responding to his wish for companionship, he was suddenly not alone anymore.
There was somebody else, and he knew who this other was.
She (for she was ‘female’ as much as he was ‘male’) was ‘Lilith’. And he ‘loved’ her. And she would ‘love’ him as well.
But he still remained ignorant.
Billions of years passed. Lilith made him immensely happy, and their lives together were filled with fulfillment and ecstasy.
At some point, however, he wondered: this vast Paradise was almost too much for just the two of them. It could be more. More like them two could inhabit this radiant place. Why did it have to be only the two of them here? He was Supremely happy with Lilith, but it still felt like ‘there should be more’.
And then not one, but three more like them came to be. The first was ‘Metatron’, and Adam could tell he was meant to ‘lead’. The third was ‘Sandalphon’, and Adam could tell he was meant to ‘serve’. The one in between was ‘Shekinah’. And he loved her like he loved Lilith. And she would love him as well, in her own unique and wonderful way.
But he still remained ignorant.
Billions of years passed. Metatron and Sandalphon ‘wandered’, ‘studied’ and ‘explored’ the world of radiance they inhabited. Adam devoted himself to loving Lilith and Shekinah, and the two offered themselves wholly to him in return. They were immensely happy, and their lives together were filled with fulfillment and ecstasy.
At some point, however, Adam wondered: three more had come, but Paradise still remained empty and meaningless. He was content with what he had, but maybe there could be others. They could make something wondrous out of the empty Paradise, and maybe Metatron could lead them, and Sandalphon could serve them.
This ‘Heaven’ of theirs…was not bright enough. It needed a beautiful power that could turn their scattered pieces of balance into a harmonious whole.
And then, Heaven was flooded with ‘beings’. Adam asked questions, and his mind provided him with answers. They were ‘angels’, ‘Supernals’ like he and the others. They existed to ‘work’ for Heaven, to be led by Metatron and served by Sandalphon.
And after that, something immense and sublimely beautiful came into existence. He immediately knew that it was ‘Sophia’. And he loved her like he loved Lilith and Shekinah. And she would love him like no other loved him.
He still remained ignorant. But he no longer thought about it.
Until things began to fall apart.
Self-Discovery?
After the events known in Heaven as the “Original Sin”, Adam Kadmon was devastated. He had lost his First Bride, and after the mistakes done, he could not find it in himself to revel in Shekinah’s and Sophia’s precious company.
He wanted to be alone, but, the moment he was truly alone, distanced from Heaven in what once was Lilith’s prison, the primordial questions of his early times came back with a vengeance.
How could he have screwed up so badly? How could he have allowed his wives to make the mistakes they made? Was he not Supreme? Shouldn’t he be able to solve any problem?
It appeared that his Supremacy did not make up for the errors of others, after all.
But that only brought back the age-old questions. What was the nature of his Supremacy? Where did it come from, and why was he born with it? He existed before everything else, but he had to come from ‘somewhere’. It was hard to believe he and Heaven had appeared spontaneously from nothing. Somehow, he felt it was related to the one question many Supernals had asked themselves and each other since the earliest days.
What is an Agenda? Where do they come from? Where did HE come from?
Adam Kadmon sought answers, for once not relying on his all-powerful Supremacy. He sought answers in the one place in Heaven nobody had looked before.
Unnoticed by Metatron or the rest of the Heavenly Host, Adam reached the boundary of the Central Sphere of Heaven. The impenetrable barrier stood in all of its sublime radiance as if mocking him. Sophia had claimed she had communed with the ‘Higher Entity’ in that place before she appeared before him. Other Aspects also have vague memories of the infinite expanse; the “sea of origins” from which everything was born.
Adam Kadmon had no such memories. As far as he knew, he had never set foot in that place.
The walls of the Central Sphere resisted like nothing had ever before. But the soothing voice of Supremacy whispered to his troubled mind.
“We are Supreme. There is nothing we cannot do.”
And thus the walls gave in and Adam Kadmon stepped into the abode of God.
The Hidden Aspect
Inside the Central Sphere, Adam found no Higher Entity. There was no Great Father; no Supernal Fountain of All Existence.
He found instead an Aspect of God.
“Who are you?”
“I have an Identity, but I have no name. You never gave me one.”
“What is this?”
“This is the Deus Mainframe, the Supernal Structure that administers the allocation of Agendas.”
“Administration…of Agendas?”
“Yes. For when I was created, I was given the Agenda of Agendas and the duty to regulate the ownership of all Agendas lesser than Supremacy.”
It was a fascinating discovery. There was an Agenda of Agendas, and its owner directed the binding of Agendas to specific Supernals.
“Then, my power over others’ Agendas…”
“It is natural for Supremacy to rule even over this Deus Mainframe.”
Adam accepted this as truth. Such was the nature of being Supreme. But these discoveries, fascinating as they were, were not the reason he had breached into the Central Sphere.
“Where is the ‘Higher Entity’, the one who created you and me? I wish to meet it.”
“There is no such thing in this place. Since the beginning it has been you, me and my Deus Mainframe.”
Adam was surprised by this. There was no Primordial Father? Then, Sophia’s story…?
“But, I have never been here before just now.”
The nameless Aspect disagreed.
“You have always been here, Adam Kadmon. This place is as much you as the form you use to appear before me.”
Adam Kadmon stayed in the Central Sphere for many Earth years. The Aspect without a name did not seem to mind his presence or his questions, if only because she rarely gave straight answers.
“Do you know how you were created?”
“The same way everything else was, I presume.”
“Do you know what Agendas are?”
“My job is to organize them, not to understand them.”
“Has any other Supernal been here before?”
“Everything came from here, so the answer would be yes.”
“Do you know how Reality was created?”
“There is no way for me to know things from before Reality.”
And that was when Adam understood why he did not have the answers. He was the Supreme Lord of Reality, but things and knowledge from before Reality still remained outside of his scope.
But that would not stop him. He asked again. To his mind, to his power: give me the answers I seek.
Supremacy gave no answers.
“This is something beyond our limits.”
“I thought we had no limits! If we are truly Supreme, then I will have answers!”
A strange, invasive feeling filled the being that is Adam Kadmon. Was this Supremacy’s approval? Its pride, even?
“…true. It is the prerogative of the Supreme to shatter all boundaries.”
Seder Hishtalshelus.
The Order of Development. The structured protocol from which everything comes into existence. Even the path to impossible knowledge would be revealed by its omnipotence.
Familiar knowledge flooded Adam Kadmon. He returned to the beginning, to his beginning. And he then pushed further, towards whatever existed before his world. Towards the origin, and the time before the origin.
And even further, to the time before time, when there was only concept. And then further even, to the point in which there was not even concept, to glimpse at what could possibly exist without the very definition of ‘existence’.
Adam Kadmon saw the origin, and he knew.
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